So for the past couple days my body has been on the fritz, again, not going to lie it kind of stinks staying up till 4-5am in the morning not being able to sleep because your job forces you to stay up late, messing up your sleeping patterns. I feel antsy, not tired, hungry (of course, what do you expect guys are always hungry), thirsty, a desiring to put my body to sleep enabling it to recharge for the day ahead. The other day I stayed up so late, my eyes burned because they too were exhausted from the continuous glaring at my ceiling wall, It’s quite plain if you ask me but I have noticed it reminds me of mountains I once saw while traveling across the US and I miss them something awful. I think next summer I will go traveling again to explore more of the great land called the US.
Anyways the reason I’m typing this now is because of this morning, at church, a friend of mine was speaking and through out the entire time he was on stage, all I was thinking about was how tired I was, and how I wanted to retreat back into bed and cover my eyes drifting into more hours of uninterrupted rest. But somewhere else in my body, my soul, I heard God saying again don’t worry you got out of bed on a good day, be patient and listen for what he is about to say. Of course though even though I was drifting in and out of sleep during the first 30min of his sermon, I could’ve past a pop quiz after, if they would have given one, on what he was talking about and the passage he was describing. He was talking about the passage in Mark 2.
And when he returned to Capernaum after some days, it was reported that he was at home. And many were gathered together, so that there was no more room, not even at the door. And he was preaching the word to them. And they came, bringing to him a paralytic carried by four men. And when they could not get near him because of the crowd, they removed the roof above him, and when they had made an opening, they let down the bed on which the paralytic lay. And when Jesus saw their faith, he said to the paralytic, My son, your sins are forgiven. Now some of the scribes were sitting there, questioning in their hearts, Why does this man speak like that? He is blaspheming! Who can forgive sins but God alone? And immediately Jesus, perceiving in his spirit that they thus questioned within themselves, said to them, Why do you question these things in your hearts? Which is easier, to say to the paralytic, Your sins are forgiven, or to say, Rise, take up your bed and walk? But that you may know that the Son of Man has authority on earth to forgive sins—he said to the paralytic— I say to you, rise, pick up your bed, and go home. And he rose and immediately picked up his bed and went out before them all, so that they were all amazed and glorified God, saying, We never saw anything like this! -Mark 2:1-12
Now during this walk through in Mark 2, I heard these three things:
1) Christ again was out and about living life with the sinners, teaching to them the word of God.
2) Christ healed a paralytic man, whom was lowered into the house in which Jesus was in, by four friends.
3) Christ proclaiming that he was the Son of God.
Now those three things are very important, but not the main point of what I learned this morning. What I learned came after the discussion of what happened in Mark 2. Rob, my friend, goes on to say that we sometime miss a key part to this story. The part missing, is the desire of the paralytic’s heart. This is what got me. When lowered into the house the desire for the paralytic man, and the four friends were to heal the broken body. It’s funny though, from creation in Genesis, God created man and woman in likeness of him with a desire to be with him. So in this parable, it’s funny that the desire the paralytic man has in his heart is to be healed from his illness, and that he goes to the Son of God, the true place of our desire yearns for, and asks him if he could heal him (Christ can read the mans heart already without him speaking a word). And then this is the part where Rob says, how many times do we run to God asking him for worldly desires, when everything we really yearn and desire is the one we go to and ask for such things. It shouldn’t be an action that we go to God and ask for desires through him, but that we just simply ask for and to be with Christ, our true desire in life.
Then this is when I thought about myself. How many times have I asked for things I’ve desired, from the one I should be desiring. How many times?
Before this week, I’ve felt God pushing me this way in thinking, and it sunk in today. That is why I’m going to continue what I’m doing but with a different mind set of what desire. From now on I’m not going to go to God asking God for worldly desires for, when what he really wants is for us to desire him. God will provide and place things in my life that will make me happy, I know this, but I also know that this life will not be easy by any means. That is why I keep praying that when I walk with you God that you twist and turn the Earth and place me where you need me to be.
Desiring Christ, because he first Loved me, so I’m going to Love him back through others.
I write this not to boast and say, see this is what God is doing for me, but I write it so that others can find encouragement in it and understand and learn as well, through what God has taught me this week. Desire God, Desire God for Others.
Happy 4th of July!